I thought I'd go for a walk this morning. This is kind of a big deal for me. I'll give you a little background.
In a previous post, I've gone over the list of symptoms I've been experiencing recently. They've all created different things that have kept me from exercising. Thus, I've lost a lot of my cardio ability and drive to do anything that would likely make my heart beat faster than normal. I went for a gentle walk last weekend, and it felt good. I figured I'd try again today.
But I put my running shoes on instead.
Yes, I have different shoes for different things. My walking shoes don't support my shins right if I run in them, and my running shoes don't really make my feet appreciate just walking. So I had to make a choice when putting my shoes on. I didn't even hesitate. And it felt so right.
I use my walking times as mini self-therapy sessions. I talk about issues or problems, and usually I find some good answers by getting all my thoughts out into the universe. I'll have an epiphany or two while out there that help me come to terms with the things I'm dealing with at the moment. When I run, though, I try to only concentrate on my breathing. It helps me settle in a way that's probably similar to meditation.
And I was getting good at it too. To run a mile without stopping was really a massive challenge, but I overcame it two times (!!) before I had to stop due to my hormone imbalance. I read that long cardio sessions were not good for hormone imbalances, so I took a break on the running. The imbalance was also causing some depression, so I added some cashews to my diet. Then I started to gain weight - no surprise there - but they really super helped. My mood improved, and my hormones seemed to have found out how to regulate themselves.
I'm feeling a whole lot better, so I've scaled back on the nuts and felt like dialing back into the running. I said I'd do one small run and walk for a while to see how I feel. I did four runs. Nothing too long. Maybe a minute max each. But that was my first run in over a month I think. We'll see how I feel later, but for right now, I'm totally happy with the progress.
I sit here, still sweating from the heat and exertion, feeling brave and accomplished. I smell like sweat and human, and it's glorious. I'll explain why in another post, but take my word for it for now. I'm a happy girl this morning. It was a huge step for me.
Time to edit a screenplay and inhale a whole watermelon now. Have a lovely day! <3