Hey all. Just stopping by to say hi! I know it has been a while (again) but I've really not been up to it. Or anything for that matter. I've mentioned plenty of times here about how I stopped taking my birth control pills, and now three months later I'm in a bit of a pickle. Perhaps when I'm on the other side of all this, I'll talk about it some more. Today is actually a great day, but the bad days are beyond bad. I'd never wish it on my worst enemy.
So I'm taking steps to getting better. I have an appointment with my OBGYN tomorrow for my normal yearly checkup, but I obviously want to talk to her about this mental state I'm in. I also have a physical scheduled for Wednesday and a therapist appointment on Thursday. Even if this is all anxiety and hormonal issues, I still have some lingering things to chat about. It'll be helpful if I need time off work as well, which I've needed as of late. I've been off since very early Wednesday morning. I pretty much ran out crying, so I couldn't go back. I'm supposed to go back tomorrow, and right now I feel prepared, but things change every half hour around here so we'll see.
Basically, it's been anxiety/panic attacks, which lead to me thinking I'm seriously seconds away from dying. I'm pretty healthy - you see how I eat, which hasn't changed, and I run, get sun, drink water, sleep, etc. - so I highly doubt I'm actually dying. But my brain gets pretty convinced that I am. I had to go to urgent care last week because it got so uncomfortable in my body.
Eh, just talking about it makes it bad, so I'm going to stop there. I'll talk about it when I can, but for now, I just wanted to say HI and that I'm still here! Just going through some things. Hope all is well with you all. Come find me on any of my social media accounts and say hi. <3