Anyway, I woke up this morning to blood in my underwear. It's not that time of the month, so that shouldn't have happened. It was confusing, but because of the amount I saw, I put a tampon in and went for a walk. I wore it for two hours but felt the need to take it out. Then I was convinced I had TSS (thanks, anxiety) because all I wanted to do was sleep and my brain was a little fuzzy. After I read the possible symptoms, I was sure I had them all (again, big thanks to my anxiety). It just felt like I was fighting a really bad feeling about something. I don't know if it was the heat, a little dehydration, or just pure panic, because that happens a bit, but my poor husband had to witness a meltdown. I broke down into tears over feeling so nuts. The whole thing was so confusing, and I didn't feel right in my body. This is what the panic attacks do. Ugh. I'm fairly certain this is all partly due to getting off my birth control pill. Still trying to detox that and all. And I haven't seen blood since I took the tampon out. Has anyone ever experienced stuff like this? Let me know.
Tomorrow I am going to post a video where I get pretty real again. It's all about eating disorder behaviors, what's normal, and what shouldn't be happening. I think it'll be useful and informative, and I'm definitely honest with what I've been through and what I currently do. I hope you'll watch!
- 3 bananas
- Most of a 7-banana smoothie
- 2-3 cups red and green seedless grapes
- Corn tortilla chips and homemade salsa (a lot, omg)
- Corn pasta with mozzarella and homemade marinara mushroom sauce
Colors: Yellow, red, green, brown, white
Water: Not enough but not sure how much.
Exercise: 45 minute walk, 45 squats, 15 bicycle crunches, 30 second plank, 7 push-ups
Sunshine: 65 minutes (although it was pretty cloudy some of that time)
Sleep: 8.5 hours
- What does a good meal consist of?
A good raw meal would generally be a lot of fruit or a large salad. A lot of fruit is something like this: 8 bananas, 5-6 cups of grapes, 2 pineapples, 6 large mangoes, 4 pounds of strawberries, etc. You eat fruit until you're full - actually full! A large salad would fill a punch bowl and be covered in a fruit/veggie dressing. I use a lot of red wine vinegar and some EVOO as dressing, but you can make a great avocado/orange/tomato dressing too. But fill a punch bowl with greens and veggies. NOM.
- If I'm not eating all raw, what cooked food can I eat?
High carb cooked vegan food is always acceptable. Starches like baked potatoes, sweet potatoes, and other root veggies are good. Rice (brown or white) is another great choice too. You can also find rice flour pastas and corn pastas that make a good meal if you make your own sauce. Legumes work in my book as well. A veggie soup with beans and/or rice would be excellent.
- Why am I not losing weight?
You shouldn't focus on that. But to answer your question, you might not be seeing weight loss because you're not losing weight. Perhaps you're burning fat and gaining other things (muscle, body fluids, bone density, etc) at the same time. Get off the scale and focus on how you feel. Maintaining health will create a slim, healthy body. It'll come in time, but we have to give our bodies time to heal before fat loss becomes priority. Just enjoy the ride.
Eat your fruits and veggies, kids.